I feel so depressed. So many reasons. I am so confused. All I know is that I am feeling a lot of regret in my life right now. I hate the fact that I got pregnant early. Yes, I love my daughter, but, you can’t blame me for having this feeling of regret. I want to enjoy a single life. I want to travel, to study, to have fun, to party. It hurts me because no matter what I do now, I cannot do it anymore. Maybe in the future when I bebe is older but that would mean I am old as well. I want to enjoy the life of 20’s. To the fullest. But that is quite impossible now. I am feeling down. And no one can even understand me, except for Jugene, whom I least expected. Lord, if I can time travel right now, I would like to go back to my grade 6 days. Correct my mistake with Jose and of course, wait for the right time for establishing a family. I am emotionally unprepared. I know, bebe is being affected with my decision but I just can’t help myself… I want to vent out more of my feelings right now. Feelings that I can’t even tell to anyone aside from Jugene.. But I don’t have time. Hope to find some time to vent out soon. 

Labels: depressed, diary entry, feelings, Jose manansala, jose manansala II, jose r manansala, joser manansala, personal, sad

I feel so depressed. So many reasons. I am so confused. All I know is that I am feeling a lot of regret in my life right now. I hate the fact that I got pregnant early. Yes, I love my daughter, but, you can’t blame me for having this feeling of regret. I want to enjoy a single life. I want to travel, to study, to have fun, to party. It hurts me because no matter what I do now, I cannot do it anymore. Maybe in the future when I bebe is older but that would mean I am old as well. I want to enjoy the life of 20’s. To the fullest. But that is quite impossible now. I am feeling down. And no one can even understand me, except for Jugene, whom I least expected. Lord, if I can time travel right now, I would like to go back to my grade 6 days. Correct my mistake with Jose and of course, wait for the right time for establishing a family. I am emotionally unprepared. I know, bebe is being affected with my decision but I just can’t help myself… I want to vent out more of my feelings right now. Feelings that I can’t even tell to anyone aside from Jugene.. But I don’t have time. Hope to find some time to vent out soon. 

Labels: depressed, diary entry, feelings, Jose manansala, jose manansala II, jose r manansala, joser manansala, personal, sad